Today

It was a good day. It started with me dancing "Domino" by Jessie J, which is my newest favorite song. I was like "whatever with everybody, I'm just gonna be happy, blah blah". I saw Robert a few times and he was hot as usual but I kept my cool and I kept on smiling. Everything was fine. But happy moments do not last for long in my life and everything went down when my guy friend told me he almost punched Robert on Saturday night because he didn't say hi to me in school. I definitely looked like a fuckin idiot who is telling everybody that the guy doesn't say hi to me. Then, I came back home and I started looking at some pictures of a girl in my school, and Robert LIKES EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. He doesn't even like my status on Facebook. Nothing. He doesn't look at me. He doesn't say hi to me. He ignores me. He definitely doesn't even wanna have anything to do with me. Period. I get it now, the story about me getting a broken heart is repeating itself like it always did. So I cried. I cried while listening to Taylor Swift songs. Because it is time to finally face it: HE DOESN'T LIKE ME. HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME. AND HE NEVER WILL. What did I think? That this time things were going to go the way I wanted them to go? Just because he kissed me twice doesn't mean anything.

Everything sucks. I try to be happy, but I have to see him everyday. It sucks, but it's awesome at the same time, and that's why I can't get over him. Because as much as I wanna forget him, I know he is the only one that can make me happy right now.

Today

So today the first person I saw was Baby. It was awkward because he is shy as hell, he didn't even look me in the eyes. I was walking in the hallways and I saw my friend who is also his friend so I went to say hi to him and the first person I go to say hi to was Baby. After that awkward moment I said hi to all of his friends and they were all laughing. The funny thing is that Baby didn't even say hi, he was sooo nervous. It was frustrating :(

And then, after school, I went to the mall that is a block away to look for one of my friends, and when I went to the food court I walked by his table where he was eating with his friends, and EVERY SINGLE FRIEND looked at me and laughed, while he was looking down super nervous.

I mean, I don't know what the hell is going on. Tonight I'm going out to the same nightclub where we hooked up and I hope he is there, but I don't even know if something's gonna happen because he can't even look at me.

But there's a small detail I didn't tell here. When we were making out he was drunk, and then he said he was feeling sick and he puked. I was there, nothing happened to me, but I saw it, and I think that's the reason why he feels so embarrassed. I don't know.

Anyway, I REALLY REALLY HOPE I see him tonight, but I don't want to get my hopes up.

On the other hand, I sit next to Val, who sits next to X. And then after school he texted me asking me about my first day of school in Argentina and then we talked for a while and he was kinda cute, but he still doesn't really show anything. 

Overall it was an amazing first day of school, I just hope Baby stops being so shy because I'm not done with him yet.

Today

I only have two weeks left in America and finally, it is starting to feel real. I am starting to feel what I felt when I came in 2010 and I have to admit that saying goodbye it is probably the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. I've been through this before, and all I can ask for is to be able to handle it better. I promised I was not going to cry, because when you cry it's like you make the pain official, and I don't want to feel pain (even though I will). I just want to enjoy what is yet to come on 2012. It hurts, it really does, but I can't say how happy I am I was able to go through this experience. It was one of the most beautiful things that happened in my 17 years of life. And even though it hurts to say goodbye, I don't regret my decision. Life is what we make it, according to Hannah Montana, and I am determined to make it happy and enjoyable. I am really scared about what the future has for me, and I hope I can come back to the states after college and live in New York or Los Angeles, go to grad school or whatever, and do what I want to do. And most important, be able to do all of those things as an adult looking back at my teenager years with joy, not with regrets.

So there is only two weeks left, and it is going to get harder and harder, but all I can do is enjoy every single second of those weeks, and do everything I was not able to do before.

Today

It was a pretty good day. In English we had to act a scene of Macbeth and it was pretty hilarious. I loved it. It was the whole class (like 13 kids) pretending to be Shakespeare characters.

The rest of the day went by normal, but I'm loving it. I'm trying to enjoy every single minute because I only have 7 days of school left. It makes me sad, even though I am excited to go back. Well, that is something that defenitely needs a whole post for itself, because everything that is going on right now is pretty hard, but pretty amazing at the same time.

I forgot to talk about what happened in astronomy last week. Well, the teacher asked me something, and the asnwer was Iron, and when I said it, he noticed my accent (I've been in his class since September), and I started telling the whole class that I am from another country, that I came here for a year, and that I am leaving. Since then, I am the center of attention every single day. They took it pretty well, I mean, he doesn't make me feel uncomfortable about it, he just asks me stuff about Argentina and I feel special. Besides, the whole class liked the fact, specially KL (hot and popular guy), and he asks me stuff about it all the time (Today he started singing Lola, the song, out loud in front of me). The other day he was fooling around with some kid and the teaucher said "Why are you spending time with your friend, when you could be asking Lola out on a date? You have an argentinian woman here who is leaving in three weeks, and you are just playing around with Chaycorn (the other kid). It was an awkward situation, but it was also pretty cool.

I wish all of these stuff would have happened before, but I knew I was going to feel this way at this point, and I still don't regret my decision.

Reason Why I'm Not Blogging As Much As Before

Today

Well, I don't want to be negative, but this day sucks so far.

The night before last night I went to bed at 3 and I woke up at 6. I was planning to sleep the whole day yesterday but I couldn't because I got the Sims 3 and all I wanted to do was play, so I went to bed at 12:30/ In the past 48 hours I only slept for around 8 hours and a half. So today I woke up with a red eye, a sleepy face, and a headache. After that I had to wait 10 minutes for the bus in the bus stop, and it was probably one of the coldest days of my life, it was like -11 C (14 F). It was COLD.

Well, that's sort of enough for me to be in a bad mood for the rest of the day. But I hope my luck changes and my red eye goes away.

Today

So today I went to the city with Steph and we went ice skating to Central Park, which was beautiful. Then we went to grab lunch to an European cafe, and then we went to downtown, to Union Square and NYU, which is the college where I would like to go in some other life haha I'm not that smart in this one. I had a lot of fun, and I love this city, it is truly magical and amazing.

I HAVE NO LIFE

Today

Everything can change in a blink of an eye

From Spanish Class

So I'm here in my Spanish class, and I've finished my work and the bell is gonna ring in like 3 minutes, but I just wanted to say that RIGHT NOW, I'm in Spanish class. So if I ever read this blog in the future, I'm gonna remember this normal day in my normal american school. Because someday everything is going to be over.

Well, after last night with my parents, my day was weird. But it is ok. I'm still upset with them. I tried to forget about it while I was in school though. When I went out of the lunch room, someone was behind me, like super close, and when I turned around it was S. I would like to see the face that I put when I noticed it was him. But during math class I completly forgot he was there which is awesome yayy I'm getting over him. And well, there is also a new guy <3 Just kidding, I don't really care about the new guy.

Anyway, I gotta go in 20 seconds. K bye

Today

So today I spent the whole day in my bed, doing Argentinian exams, and I'm still not done. And in addition to that, I still gotta write an essay for English, and do History homework. So school is basically killing me. But apart from that, I love spending Saturdays being lazy and laying on my bed wearing pajamas. It's a habit that became normal since I moved to America....
Well, my day was not interesting at all.

Today

So today it was not the best of days, but I gotta admit it could always be worse. Let's say that I dropped my beautiful blackberry into the sink full of water this morning, so it is kinda broken. In school I looked like shit. I had to have mozzarella sticks for lunch, from the school kitchen, and I am trying to eat healthy. The losers that texts me keeps texting me and I don't know how to stop it. It was the first day of the second marking period so there are new popular kids on my math class and I hate it because it is full of popular kids and is is like I feel more lonely. And I am tired now and I wanna sleep but I can't because I need to watch videos of Niall Horan because I have no life and I am freakin obsessed. HURRAY.

Today

So I had to be a mommy today for a few hours, because my step mom went to a cooking show or something like this, and I stayed helping my dad with my sisters. Since the time changed, my sisters think it's an hour later, so it was pretty stressful. Besides, my dad decided to go to the groceries store, so I had to take care of Isabella for tow hours, and when he came, everything was a mess with the groceries, my sisters we hungry and tired, they were both crying at the same time, the dogs were barking, my grandmother was on Skype talking about life, we could not even walk because of the bags of the groceries, we we had to cook... I mean, it was literally a mess. Which reminded me that even though I want to have a lot of kids, it's not happening any time soon. And when I say soon I mean a couple of decades...

Tonight

Tonight is one of those nights were nobody is online because everybody has a life you know, while I'm here, waiting for my dad to stop playing Xbox to watch a movie, talking on bbm with my best friend about how miserable our romantic lives are, tweeting, seeing pictures on WeHeartIt about people who is going through the same issues, reading blogs, and listening to depressing music. Yup, ITS FRIDAY, FRIDAY, GOTTA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY!

Today

Nothing important happened, but I just miss posting everyday about my day. I am definitely feeling more and more comfortable in school as the days go by, and it is kinda sad that I am leaving in two months.

Today I saw Sam straight to his eyes, and I realized he is not as cute as I thought he was. I mean, I always see him from the side, not from the front, and today I was like "wait a second, that's Sam?." But I am a stubborn person, and I don't care how ugly he can get, I still like him.

Then I was going to astronomy, and I always see him on my way there because he has physics right next door. And this time he was there, talking to a guy from my class, and I kinda felt like he was there for me. I know he probably wasn't. I know there are 99% chances that he was there to talk to his friends. But I don't know, when I walked next to them they were saying "uhmm, yeah, you know, soccer". That's what they said, and right after I went into the room, Sam left. I know, I am making up stories in my mind, that's what I do. My friend Pop tells me that she feels like he feels something for me. But you know what?! I don't care anymore. I gotta follow the rule "If he likes you, he is gonna make it happen".

Talking about boys, I cannot get Morocho out of my mind. I remember him everyday. And as my life goes on, I believe less and less that it was fate. Maybe it was chance. Maybe we are never going to see again. And I just really hate sitting here, wondering what could have happened if I did not look like crap that day on the elevator. I just cannot forget the day I saw him in the pool. It was definitely love at first sight. I saw that brunette guy with those black and green glasses, and I fell in love... but like I always say: "Whatever is meant to be will work out perfectly".

Today

(It was actually yesterday considering the fact that is after 12 pm. I hate that)

It was an amazing day until I found out that once again, I was gonna have to give my bedroom to guests. It was really cold, which was a good thing because I miss the winter (in fact, it is gonna start snowing at 4 pm, and it is October!!!). Anyway, I got a A+ in my English essay, which I gotta say it was an amazing accomplishment. During that period I also talked to the popular kids that sit around me, Matt and Abby. In Math I saw Sam, who looked pretty hot, but like I said, I'm trying to forget him. Anyway, I got a quiz back and I got a 38 out of 40, and it was pretty good too. In History we just learned about the Cold War and stuff, and well, nothing important happened after that, but it was fun, and I felt good in school. I am starting to enjoy every single day because I am leaving soon.

Then well, my aunt in law (? came and I got depressed because I hate it when my dad kicks me out of my bedroom because there are some other guests, it makes me feel like crap and like I don't have a house. But whatever, I'm used to it.

Today

It was a really good day to be a Monday. In English we are studying the medieval ages, which I love, so it was pretty interesting. Math was alright, kinda hard, but I get everything. In History we are studying the cold war, which I also love, I actually love European history in general. I sat in another table during lunch and it was pretty cool. I loved it. I sat with Eryn's friends, and they are in my grade, and they are all really cool, and we actually organized to go to the movies this Saturday to see Paranormal Activity 3. One of the girls has a car and her license, so she is going to pick us up, and we are going to have a GNO. It is gonna be pretty cool. In Astronomy we are doing this project about telescopes, and it was really cool because when we had to form a group, I already had my friends, which does not usually happen. Then in Spanish I felt really good, I always do, of course. And in Italian we didn't really do anything, so it was also cool.

Anyway, my point is that I felt like I am part of the school now. Like I have more friends, like I know more people, like I belong somewhere, and that was what I was missing the most about Argentina, feeling like I belong in that place.

Shit. Monday again...

Today (From School)

So I'm in italian "working on a project" about italian transportation, which I don't feel like doing. This is a freshman class (I'm a junior), and I don't really know anybody so I'm working by myself. There's a guy that is really really hot, but come on, he is 14, he is a freshman.

Talking about boys...

Sam has the same lunch that I have, but he sits on the other side of the cafeteria. He always walks near my table to go buy food, so he knows where I sit. Today I went to my locker during lunch, and the door to the hallway is near his table. When I came back to the cafeteria, I look at his table to see what he was doing, and he was like standing up, looking to the area where I sit (he doesn't know anybody in that area). He was like looking for something, and it seemed like he could not find it, and then he turned around and he saw me heading towards my table, and he quickly turned around again, and out of nowhere, all of his friends in the table looked at me. I was like OMG. I might be overreacting and maybe nothing happened and he was just looking at a mosquito... I don't know, but I got excited in that moment... I know he doesn't like me though, I'm pretty sure about that. So I don't know what was that.

I saw Morgan a couple times, but I found myself looking for him less and less everyday. At the beginning of the school year I would actually walk longer ways just to see him, seriously, I would always be late for class. Now, I'd rather see Sam, or just walk a little less instead of seeing him. But I gotta admit that when I see him and we have eye contact, it is definitely worth it. It kills me to know that I could've had a chance with him last year and I totally screwed it up.

Anyway, nothing important happened today. It was a good day... I mean, not good, but it was the kinda day that I enjoy because I did not have presentations or anything like that.

Adios.