Red Carpet Season

So the red carpet season has officially begun, and it is my favorite time of the year. Actually, it is my favorite time of the year when I'm in Argentina because right now it is the summer there, which means my life is all about vacations, friends, warm weather, an of course, the awards. I get obsessed with the dresses, the interviews, the speeches, the winners, the faces of the losers, the inappropriate jokes, and of course, the talent. But the real reason why I love the red carpet season is not because I love Hollywood, it is because it reminds me of my dream. It reminds me why I want to be an actress and a director, it encourages me to keep fighting for it no matter what, and it makes me feel like I can do it. Throughout the rest of the year I kinda forget, and I start looking for other dreams to accomplish, but the Golden Globes, the SAG Awards, and the Academy Awards, remind me who I want to be, and where I want to be; that I love acting more than anything else. Many people watch these awards to see the dresses and the stuff I mentioned before, and I kinda do that too, I mean, Vera Wang, Dior, and Zac Posen are reason enough to spend two hours watching the red carpet, but for me that's nothing compared to the moment when the presenter says the name of the winner. I just can't explain it. I can sorta feel how they feel and I dream that one day, that's gonna be me. Winning one of those awards is definitely the biggest and greatest goal in my life and in fact, I'm already preparing my speech, I've been doing it for 10 years actually and I'll keep on preparing it for the rest of my life until the presenter says my name and I get to say it in front of these talented people. I don't know when or how it is going to happen, but I feel like if I still have the same dream after so many years and after all I have been through, then I can still fight for it and accomplish it.

I don't want to be in Hollywood to be famous, I want to be there to be talented. I don't wanna be the most beautiful actress, I just want to be the most respected one. I don't care about having millions of fans, I just want to be able to make people cry or laugh with my performances. I don't care about knowing every single celebrity, I just want to work with good directors and actors like Woody Allen or Martin Scorcece. My dream is not about being in Hollywood anymore, now it is really about acting and being good at it, and that can be seen in my decision of going back to Argentina. I live close to New York, I had the chance to go to auditions, but instead, I decided to wait. To wait and get better. To wait and see the world. To wait and grow up. To wait and go through different experiences. I am too young right now, and I want to know about life, about people, and about myself before I can portray different characters and pretend to be in different situations. And I think I made the right choice. Next time I come to NY, I'm going to be ready to go to the best acting school, and do all of the things that I need to do to get to the top.

But always remember... AIN'T ABOUT HOW FAST I GET THERE, AIN'T ABOUT WHAT'S WAITING ON THE OTHER SIDE. IT'S THE CLIMB. And that's the first thing that comes into my mind when I'm watching the awards and when I'm watching the winners giving their acceptance speech. I used to dream about making it to the top as a teenager, but now I realize that as much as I would love to be in Los Angeles right now partying with Clooney and Pitt, it is not the right time for me in every single aspect. So I want to do the right thing, go step by step, and enjoy every minute of my life without thinking too much about the future, and someday, without even realizing how I did it, I know I'll make it there.

It's hard to wait around for something that might never happen. But it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want.

Sometimes you get tired of waiting. Cause your heart knows you waited long enough.

"Nunca esperes nada de nadie, porque esperar siempre duele"

Waiting For Him

One of the biggest lessons life taught me during these 16 years of my life, is that "good things come to those who wait". Life and experiences taught me to be patience, to wait... because when something it is meant to be, it is gonna happen at the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. So basically you just gotta wait for destiny to put it all together. Try, work hard, try to get it, you get to decide how hard you are willing to fight for it, but you don't get to decide when it is really gonna come, because the hardest battle is the time you are gonna have to wait for it.

I waited for Mason for a couple of years, it is actually more than anybody else might think. I waited, and I was patient. I have never ever been as patient as I was with him in my whole life. I knew that it was not gonna happen soon, and sadly, there was nothing I could do. So I waited, and kept going with my life. There was something inside me that told me "keep on waiting, it is gonna happen". So I did not freak out, I did not get obsessed, and I just waited.

A week ago I thought that the wait was finally over. I got all excited and obsessed about it, and I realized that I was wrong, he was not coming yet. I see how he does things with other girls while I'm here, waiting.

I know the wait is not over. And to be honest, I don't even know if it is ever gonna be over. But there is still something inside me telling me that it is meant to be, that I gotta be patient.

One of the biggest mistakes I made my whole life, specially with love, was the necessity of having everything RIGHT NOW. I was never patient, and I always got obsessed with things. Of course, they never came. The key is to be calm and to trust fate. To trust that whatever is meant to be will work out perfectly.

So I'll keep on waiting. I will keep calm and eat cupcakes, or listen to Adele, or travel the world... I don't know. the thing is that I'm willing to keep waiting, just like I did for the last 3 years. And when I least expect it, I know he is gonna come.

Things worth having, are always worth waiting for. 

"Good things come to those who wait"