Letter to Valen

Por donde empezar....

Hace 1 año y medio que venimos planeando y contando los meses para que vuelva, y al fin se dió, después de meses y meses chateando, hablando por Skype, y sin poder juntarnos ni vivir boludeces como las que venimos viniendo desde que llegue.

La cuestion es que estoy TAN feliz de haber vuelto, y mucho más feliz de haber compartido casi todos los momentos lindos desde que llegue con vos. Me di cuenta que estamos MUCHO mas unidas de lo que estabamos cuando me fui, y eso hay que agradecercelo a la distancia, porque más allá de que no te vi por mucho tiempo, vos siempre estuviste ahí, y como te dije muchas veces, fuiste una de las pocas. Por eso me hiciste saber que puedo contar con vos siempre, en las buenas y en las malas, al igual que vos con migo y wewewewe.

Sinceramente nose como hice para estar en USA y tenerte tan lejos, osea, como ayer, que me sentia mal y al rato estaba en tu house hablando, chichiando, chusmeando, analizando, haciendo terapia, y comiendo waffles. No tenes una idea como una tarde tan simple me puede ayudar tanto. Aparte es una cosa que nos entendemos en todo, hasta cuando hacemos chistes pelotudos nos reimos. Y bueno, me buscaste al amor de mi vida, algo que YA SE COMO AGRADECERTE pero nunca va a ser suficiente jajajajaja, aunque voy a hacer el intento de que si lo sea.

Vos sabes que estoy para lo que necesites forever and always <3

TE AMO HASTA EL CIELO, IDA Y VUELTA. NO TENGO PALABRAS PARA DECIRTE GRACIAS POR TODO LO Q HICISTE POR MI, ACOMPANIARME (VA CON ENIE PERO EN MAYUSCULA NO SE PUEDE) ESTE FINDE, COCINARME, ESTAR SIEMPRE, AYUDARME, ACONSEJARME, Y OBERT OBERT OBERT JAJAJAJAJAJ I LOVE YOU <333
Y SE VIENEN NUESTROS CUMPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES. WEWEWEWEWEWE

Weekend

 

 (with one of my best friends, Val)

I had such an amazing weekend, I literally didn't stop. Friday night I went to a nightclub with three friends (no comment about this). Saturday night I went to two parties and then to a nightclub in downtown with 5 friends and it was soooo much fun, and then it started to rain, like pouring rain, and we were walking in the middle of the streret which was some kind of river, it was the funniest thing ever, I almost peed myself because I couldn't stop laughing. It was 5 am and we were running looking for some kind of roof, and then a friend's brother had to pick us up, it was just so much fun! Then Sunday night I went to a friend's house to have pizzas with friends and it was also really nice.

And during the afternoons I just hanged out with friends, tanned, enjoyed the warm weather, went to the mall, etc etc etc.

I am having the time of my life and I am really happy because all of these is what I get for following my heart. 

Now let's talk about boys.

On Thursday,  Mason texted me, chatted me, and called me to plan something for the weekend (with some other friends), which couldn't happen because I ended up going out with girlfriend, but the fact that he even called me made my day.

I saw X over the weekend, and I expected him to flirt with me or something, and no, he completely got scared and didn't do anything.

And Jake was at one of the parties that I went to on Saturday, and I hate myself for not saying hi to him. I really wanted to see him. I feel like feelings of the past are starting to come back to life, and I don't know why. I don't understand if I am starting to like him again, or he just means a lot to me and I want to see him. I don't know, the thing is that I keep thinking about seeing him again all the time.

I also told my mom about these three boys, which is sort of weird cuz I never really tell her stuff. I guess I just missed my mom a lot while I was in the States and I want to start enjoying her a little bit more.

Tomorrow I'm going to Uruguay for like a week and a half and it sort of hurts to leave my city because I am really having fun, but it is just for a few days, then I'm coming back and I am staying home until forever, I don't ever want to leave again, at least for a few years. After college, I know the world is going to be waiting for me, but for now, I LOVE CORDOBA (ARGENTINA).

10 Tomatoes

I wrote this long, long ago. I never wanted to publish because I did not want to make public. But now it is in the past; the pain is not there any more, but the lesson will stay forever.

"The scariest thing about distance is that you don't know whether they'll miss you or forget you"

So I felt really bad today about something. Sometimes it is really hard to realize when to let someone go, and when to keep trying. Life is constantly changing. We are constantly changing. One day you have fun with your best friend, the next day you don't even know who she is any more. It hurts really bad, specially when you think people will stay there forever. But sometimes, it is not a fact, it is a hope. We don't know for sure if that person that promises us to be there, will actually be there forever. Forever doesn't exist, even though I wish it did.

So this is my story today: someone disappoints you, and you give them another shot. That person disappoints you again, and you give them another shot. The same person disappoints you once again, and you give them another shot. We basically give second chances because we don't want them to leave; that's why we forgive. But eventually you have to realize that something is not meant to be. When someone changes, it is hard to go back to what that person was before. I don't blame, because we all change, and we are happy with that. We grow up, we improve. But when you see someone changing and hurting people along the way, it is just disappointing. Maybe I could blame distance in my case. 10.000 km away can strengthen many things, but it can also destroy.

The thing is, today something happened, and I found myself in situation where I have to choose between this person, the one that was my best friend for a while, and another person that I love with all my heart, who is also a great friend, but who I obviously did not go through the same experiences with. Somehow, I chose the last one, instead of my best friend, or the one that used to be my best friend. Why? That's what I asked to myself. And I realized that I gotta face it, sometimes, best friends do not last forever. I'm tired to keeping a relationship through distance when I'm the only one that is actually trying to work it out. I deleted a lot of people from my life because of that, and I don't want to do it with his person, because it is just sad, but maybe I should just stop trying, because I don't even know if it's worth it any more.

I'm talking too much about my life, and you probably don't care. Let's go to the point: "Sometimes you just have to give up on people. Chasing after them is a heartache, especially when they don't try to meet u half way".

Now don't get me wrong: I love this person, I always will, and I'll be there, because even though many people leave me, I try not to do the same to them, I try to be there no matter what. But today is the day where I decide to show that I will not give a ten tomatoes, if I won't get at least one in return. Just one, that's all I'm asking for.

A Sea Full Of Sharks And They All Smell Blood

"They got their guns out aiming at me
But I become Neo when they aiming at me
Me, me, me against them
Me against enemies, me against friends
Somehow they both seem to become one
A sea full of sharks and they all smell blood
They start coming and I start rising
Must be surprising, I’m just summising
I win, thrive, soar, higher, higher, higher" - Nicki Minaj

The last 24 hours have been extremely... weird. For some reason, everybody did their best to attack me. The all managed to say the right thing, at the right time to just make me feel like shit. 

First it started with one of my best friends saying I look bad in my profile picture, then a kid that likes me texted me saying that it looks like I'm smoking in that picture, and today, Sol, told me I used to be super skinny and now I'm getting fat. I mean seriously, what is the necessity to say that? Specially when her body is twice the size of mine and I never say anything about it. 

Like I said on a previous post, it is just envy. Funny how the picture where I am supposed to look bad has more likes than any other picture of the girl who made the comment; funny how the kid that said that it looks like I'm smoking is constantly saying how hot I am; and funny how the girl that said I am getting fat has her legs the size of two war canons, and is a American wannabe who will never get as far as I got. Yeah, maybe they are trying to bring me down for a specific reason, and even if I know that they are doing it on purpose, it still hurts.

Haters... this world is full of haters.

Like I said before, don't let them make you weaker. Be like Nicki Minaj.

 

This is the picture. Do I really look that bad?

A picture of someone you grew up with

Letter to Ramoncin

Nose por donde empezar, pero creo que decirte Gracias es lo primero que tengo que hacer. Gracias por escucharme siempre, gracias por darme consejos, gracias por darme una perspectiva masculina a mis dias dramaticamente femeninos, gracias por decirme chistes y hacerme reir, gracias por mandarme videos deformes, gracias por alegrarme el dia cuando estoy de mal humor, gracias por escuchar sobre mis dias hormonales, gracias por intentar encontrarme un chico (aunque no hayas encontrado nada oficial todavia, vas por el buen camino, tenes tiempo todavia y segun lo que me decis ya tenes opciones), gracias por contarme todo y confiar en mi, gracias por escuchar mis estupideces, gracias por aguantar mis obsesiones, gracias por decirme cuando hago algo mal... simplemente gracias por todo, porque sos el unico que nunca me decepciona, que siempre me ayuda, y que estubo siempre del otro lado de la compu ABSOLUTAMENTE TODOS LOS DIAS desde que me fui. 

Te juro que en la mayoria de mis problemas, siempre los hablo primero con vos antes que con otras amigas, porque se que nunca se te va a escapar nada, porque siempre tenes la mejor respuesta, siempre intentas hacerme sentir bien, y aunque haya veces que nada de lo que digas me pueda hacer sentir mejor, significa muchisimo que demuestres que te importa y que lo intentes.

De verdad que sos el mejor amigo de toooooooooooooodos, no te comparas con nadie. Te extranio muchisimo y no veo las horas de que veamos partidos de futbol juntos (te vas a tener que aguantar mis comentarios sobre jugadores HOT), que salgamos por ahi a hablar de la vida en vez de hacerlo por chat, que nos caguemos de risa todo el dia con la Vale, y que pase horas contandote cosas sobre chicos y vos contandome cosas sobre tus mujeres (que empiezan con S y terminan con OFI.

En fin, nose que haria sin vos, sin tus palabras sabias, sos el mejor mejorcito amigo del mundo, te adoro hasta las estrellas supernovas (son las que explotan, y estan bien lejos, lo estudie en astronomia), y sabes que podes contar SIEMPRE SIEMPRE SIEMPRE con tu amiguita Lola, porque aunque este en el otro lado del mundo estoy para lo que necesites.